Returning to the place where I belong

Jeez this place feels deserted and abandoned!  

Well, it's been 2 weeks since I deactivated.  My homecoming is bittersweet, and I realize that I'm coming back into a bunch of various drama and mess.  But I want to be here, and I will deal with the consequences and drama that needs to be dealt with.

I had my reasons for deactivating when I did, and I had my reasons for coming back.  I'm not exactly in the mood to talk about it, but I hope people can at least understand.  I just need to get caught up on here before I can adequately talk about anything.  So, I'm just here to say hi for now.

I do want to thank the people who've waited patiently for me.  Thanks to you for understanding.  Thanks to the people who didn't freak out.  If I was leaving permanently, I would have said something.  But I left suddenly because I wasn't trying to attract attention or have someone change my mind again.  I've wanted to deactivate since June, for 100 reasons.  The main reasons have now either been satisfied or expired, and I've wanted to return for over a week, but I just have too little time these days.  I'm in a huge hurry now before work.  I didn't even go to bed lol.

Part of the reason it took me so long to return was I didn't know how to do it properly.  So, I'm just going to do it one baby step at a time.  

I'm not trying to talk about it all in the comments.  But right now, what I need is for you to "mention" me places that I've missed in the past two weeks.  I've been on DA, and seen a few pictures, journals, and comments, but I couldn't get mention notifications.  I can talk more about that later, but now, if you could show me anything that I missed, I would appreciate it.  I want to acknowledge you all!

I also wanted to say..... good grief.  Why were people still adding me to their watch? lol.  Anyways, thanks to the hundreds of people who checked on my account each day ... and thanks to the ~120 people who watched me while I was gone!  lol well I'm confused, but still, thanks

I love SFM, I can't stop wanting to make pics with it.  But, now that I'm back, I'm probably going to take it slowly, and make sure that I don't get overwhelmed.  I took care of a bunch of things while I was gone to help me.

This picture took so many days to make lol.

First day, I ended up with this unfinished thing:  but it didn't seem right

Second day, I made the pose you see   (unedited)

The third day, I edited the picture in lightroom as you see up there.

The 4th day, I was writing a description, but it turned into a story.... 

and on the 5th day, I realized that the story was going to be it's own thing, so it will come later.

I just wanted to stick with the basics here in this description, and give everyone the opportunity to yell at me, vent their frustrations at my leaving, etc.... here, instead of spamming my friends with it.

I was not dead.  I was easily findable on other sites.  Thanks also go to the people who sought me out on steam, skype, youtube, facebook, tumblr, and instagram.  Heck, I even got an email. lol

anyways, I really am late for work now.  But I'm never gonna get this up if I don't just DO IT so there.  Done!

www.youtube.com/watch?v=YVkUvm… (lol)

I can't wait to see everything I've missed, and get back into the game